Purpose

Dictionary.com defines the word 'purpose' as the reason for which something exists or is done, made, used, etc.

But to be honest there really isn't a purpose behind bringing up this word other then I'm in a thoughtful mood. Maybe it has something to do with the weather here in Arizona. It's hit monsoon season which brings in the storm clouds which blankets everything in a dull gray. With promising chances of rain later during the day. The water is nice, but mix it with the Arizona trade mark heat, and you get humidity. Fun all around. The rain is a nice change though.

And it's on days like this were I can stare out the window at the gloomy day and wonder if I'm happy with my lot in life? Or have I done everything that I should and am I living up to my 'purpose'? Only problem is, I'm not sure what my purpose really is at the moment. Not that I'm really expected to at twenty.

And I know I've messed up my life to where I'm struggling to fix it now in the future, I hate consequences. Like not taking the proper course with school and now struggling to get a GED because I didn't graduate. Hence the jobless bit of my life right now.

Another thing I am struggling with is deciding what to do with my life now that I have almost free reign over it (just need that GED). Which direction do I want to go other then up and out? I'm still deciding.

Thank heavens my family, especially my parents, are very supportive. And willing to back me up with whatever I do. So I count my blessings every day.

One of my possibilities that I can do with my life of course is Massage Therapy school, followed by physical therapy. Which I still might do in the future. Again, the only thing stopping me there is my GED. Working more toward it every day.

Another thing I can do is writing. I'm currently taking a writing course through the mail that I found online. I'm enjoying every assignment. I love writing which is why I do it. It allows me to express myself, my emotions, my thoughts and expressions on curtain subjects. Which is one of the many reasons I started a blog. I'll share with you all one thing that I learned about writing from my course. "Write for yourself." It doesn't matter what audience you are writing for. If you do not enjoy your own writing and the subject you are writing about. Then your reader's wont like it either. Yes you must write for the audience, but your first concern is writing for you.

Well, I've run out of things to say this time around. But I might be creating a second blog that is all dedicated to things that I have written for my course or things I have written for school. But I'm still thinking about it.